Not Finished Yet - I Am a Work In Progress - Be Patient With Me

I’m sure this is going to be one of the most read entries. Unfortunately, too many of us can relate to disappointments. When the source of it comes from someone who supposed to be an example, a spiritual leader whom we should follow, the damage is even bigger. When we realize that the one who preaches how to live be far from living it and they are not whom they pretend to be, we can feel even more disappointed and discouraged.

I know that many people sincerely seek God, and God is faithful because he goes the extra mile to reach us. God gave Jesus for us, God gave his best to save us and I can only imagine how much pain can cause him when those who should be his representatives are the ones who scandalize those who are seeking him.

“But if you cause one of these little ones who trust in me to fall into sin, it would be better for you to have a large millstone tied around your neck and be drowned in the depths of the sea”. ~ Matthew 18:6 and I like how the Message puts it in words: “But if you give them a hard time, bullying or taking advantage of their simple trust, you'll soon wish you hadn't. You'd be better off dropped in the middle of the lake with a millstone around your neck”.

How often spiritual leaders do take advantage of people of their congregation, of those who want to sincerely serve God, but they find themselves serving dictators, who dictate.

The Bible says:” The greatest among you must be a servant”. ~ Matthew 23:1 and pastors, preachers use this Bible verse for others, but how rarely you see them serving. Bossing around, giving orders you can see them…serving???

We all fail, we all make mistakes and I never had a problem with that. Pastors, church leaders are humans and it’s inevitable that they will fail, what really bugs me is that they pretend they are perfect. They’re too proud to accept their mistakes, too proud to realize that it doesn’t always have to be their way that someone else might just have a good idea too.

My heart breaks every time I see someone leave the church because of church leadership disappointment. Maybe, that’s why WIP offers you a place where you can share your thoughts, your feelings, and questions without someone going down your neck if you don’t agree, if you might have a different view.

I am so grateful that God is merciful and faithful. I am so thankful that when people disappoint us, He NEVER does.

One day we all are going to stand in front of God and be responsible for our words and actions. Over the years I often felt to give up on church, to leave because I been hurt too much from those who should be God’s extended arm to support and love. But, leaving is not an option. One day I will stand in front of God and I will not be able to excuse myself that my pastor, priest, church leader disappointed me and that’s why I don’t believe in God.

I have to make a choice, even if I been hurt, I will give my pain to God, ask for his love and the ability to forgive and I pray for those church leaders so that God can soften their hearts and change them.

Today I have been disappointed again. Nothing new about that, it’s just a new person with a new name, a different pastor. I cried again and ask God to heal my wounds and to give me strength to stand even when I not feel like it.

I know giving up it’s not a choice. Never ever give up on God when people who call themselves to be his children disappoint you. Never ever give up your relationship with God, he will sustain you and strengthen you. Don’t leave, don’t be a victim, be an unseen leader in your own word. Stand still and ask God to help you through these difficult times and Trust him that he sees everything.

I would be interested about your thoughts on how Spiritual Leaders disappointed you.